is life full of confusing state? im confused though i dun wan it to. i love him but i hate him. y i hate him? gd question but no answer. yeah... yesterday Valentine's Day. went to watch movie wif my dearest frens. maia n khair, mai n shaun, me n hansen, juz nice... 3 couples.. bluekk!~

we watch "White Lady". kinda scary... as usual la. confirm i will block my cute face with my bag. after watch movie, went eat as we're all die of hunger. to Far East n enter Sakura Cuisine. e food was rather tasty... its been ages since i last eat there. they've renovate it after all...

give her the gift. a big cushion wif two bear hugging each other (me n her) wif the tittle..."FOREVER FRIENDS". haiz... 24/7 sighin'. she was surprised i gav it to her. well, i gav it to her out of SINCERITY. nothin' Less... nothin' more... SWEAR

went hm together wif her, mai n ida. talked to her... kind of lyk pathetic ass man... well.. referrin' to me. ya... we tried to settle things but i guess its jz to0 late. while clarifyin' things to her, tears drop on my cheek. cant believe i cried... guess i muz be missin' her to0 much... so much dat nothin' can express my feelins'

2mrw audit case. e only period i could sit by her side n joke as per normal. its hard... damn hard. both of us appreciate frenship, but fate decide upon us both. we planned, HE decide. she says my feelins' is 50 - 50 to accept reality. am i? we cant rush things... it concerns two hearts, two minds n two souls. one hav to giv in but in our case BOTH giv in. in the end, BOTH hurts. thats life i supposed

life is full of challenges. reality is part n parcel of life. wad could i do? im jz a plain, pathetic, bitch who cares for others feelins' but not mine. the bottom of the story, im jz plain stupid, right? hmm...

anyway, im fucked up wif somthing. where is justice? is this the world of chinese and there's no malays? Biased! its hard if people are TOO favouritism. wad a luck living in this favouritism world. people dun APPRECIATE others. they thought they are SMART.. SMART ASSHOLES, i can say. sucks. graduating so0n but the attitude... OMG... cant be expressed man. am i paranoid? nahh... dun think so. those who thinks they are affected, well... too bad i guess...
get to know sumtin. was browsing the friendster using Lin's n i actually saw sumtin i shouldn't see. hate it man... sad, anger, everything comes... ARGHHH!!

Mrs Lee referred me to counselling but i ignore it. for wad? its the same. juz wasting my precious time talking to the counsellor n in the end, im still lyk diz. no use man. she's furious why i did not hand up any.. i repeat.. ANY assignments.. NONE man.. i did hand up NONE. she's very, very, very damn worried abt me n my recent attitude. yeah... i've changed to the bad n NASTY ain

changed for the better of for the worst? u guys guess n lemme know. hah!~





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