i love you. i know i did. why ? why do we be this way? i badly want to make it up to you. its not my will to do this to you. i know im wrong. in my heart, it beats only ur name, no others.

i love you. why cant you see?? why cant you understand?? u choose to believe them. watever you heard about me. you refuse to ask me, clear things out. you said "i dun wan to add to things which will create another misunderstandings"...

Please. i dun want to prolonged our misunderstandings.

i longed for your touch.
i longed for your hugs.
i longed for your kiss.

why cant we be like before? 13 more days to our 1st anniversary but yet we are struggling.

heart bleeds. feelings hurt. why are we in this state? do we deserved this treatment for each other?

on the phone you sounded im the bad person here. tell me where the mistakes lies and i amend it. i dun wan to go on be this way. i dun wan to prolonged this matter and let our relationship "stuck" here forever. you said your heart have my name only. i trusted that. but where the trust for me, then? all this while, where do the trust gone to? yes, i know we have a fight due to privacy matter but i thought we have cleared that matter.

you keep saying you prefer to be quiet. but the fact is i know you badly want my touch. if im giving you cold shoulders, tell me. i'll amend it. i'll change it to your preferences. for our sake, i'll change anything you want me to.

please dear...

dun keep hiding your feelings. you have to talk. we have to strengthen out everything slowly. you know we can pulled through. i have the confidence, do you?

we promise each other to take things slowly.. one step at a time.. but is this the way you wanted us to be?

i really love you... i really do. and i dun wan to end our relationship here. and i dun wanna lose you again. i know we can pulled through together. we have to try dear... we have to...

i badly missed your touch, dear.





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