i miss him
i dunno why He suddenly appeared in my mind
we dun talk every night
we dun call each other
just messages to keep this frenship alive
i dunno
im wondering
He have opened up my Heart

He makes me craving for His Attention
He makes me craving for His Care
He makes me craving for His Concern
but importantly
He makes me carving for His Love

am i in Love?
is this Love?
why am i feeling this way?
it's been 6 Days since He went to Aussie
and it's been 6 Days we never message each other

i miss Him, i do
but i dun wan Him to know
I want this to be a secret
im scared if He knows it
we wont be this close anymore

Let this be a secret
i'd rather be His close fren to be near Him
than having Him far from me





NDP *RAYA OUTING*


For EAST PEOPLE;
Venue: Naq's Bus Stop
Time: 1030hrs
Person to Call: Naq


For WEST/NORTH PEOPLE:
Venue: Jurong East Interchange/MRT Station
Time: 1130hrs
Person to Call: Wany


*For those going; leave your names at Wany's blog Tag; indicated whether your GOING/NOT GOING
**For those who have enquiry on this; Feel Free to Call Ain
***IF YOU'RE IN CLUSTER D's NDP 2007 (MALAY); PLEASE REPLY ONCE YOU HAVE READ THIS POST. THANK YOU FOR YOUR CO-OPERATION.






ps: stop calling me! Jantan Tak Tahu Malu!~





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ps: i miss you





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im so0o happy

someone have been following me all this while

hmm....

should i say He's a STALKER?
or
should i say He's a SPY?

come on laa

wadever u did,
it doesnt makes sense

stop following me
if wad you did
is not for g0od sake

your just wasting tym

hoho...

wasting tym

read my post?

read on lo...

who cares?

its MY blog

im free to write on wadever i want

i wanna write about HIM
or
i wanna write about MY CAREER
or
i wanna write about SHIKIN

opps...

did i mention SHIKIN??

hmm....

*ape-ape la kan...*

haha..

this time im stronger..

u think im scared of you?

but pls la huh...

its only ALLAH im scared of

hmm...

maybe that ZUL is u lo..

who cares anyway

u want to beat me up?

by all means, pls

u think im scared?

i think ur COWARD

you only got guts to write in MY TAG

if u have GUTS

you would have facing me FACE-to-FACE

anyway...

thanks for keeping track wadever i do

for being my "LOYALTY READER"
i gave u a "ROUND OF APPLAUSE"

*wuhoowhuoooo*


*da la kan... tak perlu la kau nak mengamuk-ngamuk. kau da tahu aku takkan ganggu Shikin lagi, buat ape kau nak mengamuk. kau pikir, aku ade MASA pe nak msg-msg org yg tak kenang budi mcm KAU.. oppss... atau DIA? pls la.. aku ade byk bende nak buat. Tak semena-mena si TUNANG kau tu msg aku, mara-mara aku. well... aku pon tak rugi kehilangan seorang kawan mcm dia. setakat bertunang dgn org mcm kau, mane-mane lelaki pon aku bleh cari. oh, and btw... for ur info; aku da tak KUASA nak msg TUNANG kau tu.. jadi, silap kau sendiri la kan. kalau kau pikir aku nk TERHEGEH-HEGEH dgn TUNANG kau tu, pls ehk; CERMIN MUKE SENDIRI k. aku hanya akan layan org yang APPRECIATE aku.. bukan mcm SESETENGAH MANUSIA TU... tahu nak salah kan org lain, padahal diri sendiri TAK BETUL. (SEPERTI MENGAJAR ANAK KETAM BERJALAN) ape lah nasib... aku ucapkan terima kasih la kerana sudi membaca blog aku nie. terima kasih kerana sudi jadi PEMBACA SETIA aku. jgn berhenti membaca tau... keep on mengikuti pengerakkan aku k. Selamat Hari Raya!~*


ps: i miss my bitches. i miss my donut's clan. i miss my deadly-duo. i miss my daughterss. i miss him.





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im so gonna miss him
he's going away for 2 weeks

dun thnk the other way
he's just a friend; not more not less

he will be coming back on the 5th of Nov
*sedih la kan*
he wont be coming along for Raya Outing



i msged her
but aint no reply

im sad?
im furious?

nope...
expected it

i know she wouldn't reply my msges
even though...

where do i stand now?
is the frenship still burning?

if yes, why she's avoiding me?
if no, why she's contacting me?

my mind blank!

i still dun get the answer from her
why should i keep on waiting for that answer?

i just wants the truth
does she still regard me as her bezfren or JUST a fren?

i dunno...
im confused!

why do i still holding on to this frenship?
why? why? why?

argghhh...!!!!!!


To my dear Shikin;

if you happen to read this post, i have something to say to you
for all the tears, joy and secrets we have shared
you always know that you will be kept in my heart, forever
i dun mean harm by doing this to you
i mean well
how long are we going to hold on to this frenship?
its like;
im standing on the cliff, waiting for you to push me down
do i deserves this treatment?
do i deserves this?
its good enough he hates me to the core
but he's no angel
i have said this before;
one day, you have to choose between me (this frenship) or him (your lovelife)
i know its difficult for you to make this decision
but you have to, my dear
dun keep me hanging like this
im wondering if he's an angel;
sent by GOD to punish you for not acknowleged me as your fren, bezfren


*aku sedih tau, Kin. siang malam aku nangis pikirkan tentang nie. dulu, bila kau perlukan aku, aku berada disisi kau, tiap saat, tiap waktu. fitnah org terhadap kita, aku tak pedulikan. tapi skg, pasal Faz, kau tinggalkan persahabatan ini. aku tak ungkit, Kin. bahkan, aku selalu berdoa agar hati Faz akan terbuka satu hari nanti. kau dtg dan pergi sesuka hati kau. aku bukan anak patung, Kin. aku manusia. i have feelings too*


Allah have wakes me up from this long dream
i began to move on with my life
i know i have to leave her, one day
sooner or later is the matter of time

and now,
im glad

they came into my life
wen i needed someone the most

the least, i know
they will be there for me

to that;

i want to take this opportunity to thanks;

Hau Teng
Fiona
Azizun Jasmani
Siti Naqiah Mohammed Nahadi
Juaini Ishak
Syazwani Roslan
Farhanah Mohamed
Kenneth Neo Sian Wei
Kenneth Sashi
Nazri

and not forgetting

Norsuhaila Dollah

the people i mentioned above
have made a great impact in my life

therefore, i thank you all for
making this a reality for me





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at times, i was left alone
sit and think, how was it like
all those memories; it feels so great

to those who knows me
thanks for the understanding
all those tears, joys
it wouldnt be great without having u guys by my side

i want to thanks all those who have affected my life
be it in primary, secondary, ITE or work's place


0K. RANDOM!~





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seeing this video makes my day...

anyway... on this memorable day went out wif Naq (deadly-duo).

watch the Nanny Diaries.

watch lyk watch.

show lyk show.

i dun understand the story-line.

wen to hospital to see Zie's Grandmum progress.

still the same, not much different.

went there to give her moral support.

after dat, meet Naq at Bugis.

watch movie at Plaza Sg.

ok ok...

(here's the part that Naq waiting for);

mummy Fiona called.

she just reached Singapore and straight-away she called me.

wad for?

hmm... u guess?

she wished me Happy Birthday..(aww.. so sweet).

mummy Fiona called me just to say "Happy Birthday" to me.

i miss her.

i miss mummy Hau Teng too...

talked to her for a while

cuz she say i shouldnt let Naq alone,

no one to talked to..(menyibok jee).

OK.RANDOM.

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after few years, i feel that life have been great for me. i have new frens who come by and also old frens who's left me. God have made me realise to cherish every moment of my precious life while im still given this chance. being left by my own bestfriend,i felt that this world doesnt mean anything to me anymore. i dun trust anyone else. to me, she's the only one i trust. i live for her, and i will do anything just for her. a bestfriend whom i depends on. life been great with her by my side. but not until the incident happen. how i wish the incident never happen. or maybe whatever happen, happens for a reason. well... now, i began to forget her. i dun want her to be by my side anymore. i have "grown-up". i need her no more. i thought life is all about fantasy. every wishes will always come true. but i was wrong. i thanks God for opened my heart. Since the death of my late uncle; i was greatly affected. i began to sit down and think, soul-searching. its time for me to change my attitude. slowly, bit by bit, i changed. life is not about dreaming, but life is about how you create urself to be a better person. for 18 years, i have been wasting my youth, without having to think of my future. now, im 20. i just cant keep on wasting my life without having any vision in life. God created us. but its us who create ourself, no one could. be it ur a girl, boy, women, men, lesbian, gay, im sure we all have the same mission; to be a better person. for those who are not on the right path, i always pray to God to help this people; to lead them on the right path. it takes time, i know. reflects on wad we have done in our past. is this the right decision we have made for ourself? will our parents be proud of us for wad we have done? no one is perfect in this world. in fact, trying to be perfect doesnt help at all. wad we need is guidance from HIM. life and death is all fated. we all have to die one day. but, do we need to die of regretion? while we still have time; change for the better. we need tym, yes, but we must try. saying doesnt help at all.



to all my frens who have affect me deeply, this is the least i could do...

Azizun Binte Jasmani;
i want to say thank you for the 2years frenship. all those fights, misunderstanding, tears and joy we have shared, i hope it will never fades away. no matter wad happen, you have to be strong to go thru it. think of HIM, pray to HIM, and insyaallah, everything will be fine... just fine. im sorry for all the tears, fights we have in the past. and now, i thank God for let me having you by my side whenever i needed you to. even though we always lead to misunderstanding, but im contented wif the frenship we have. may our frenship last long... insyaallah

Siti Nur Adillah Binte Mustapha;
even though we are not close with each other, thanks for understanding me as a fren. sorry for all the misunderstanding we have in the past, and may our frenship last long.. insyaallah

Siti Naqiah Binte Mohammed Nahadi;
shorty! thanks so much for being my deadly-duo. even though our age gap are so much different, thanks for understanding me as a fren/sis. for those times we have together, the tears, the smile, the joys, remember, im always here for you. forgive me for all those stupid mistakes

Juaini Binte Ishak;
thanks for the frenship. all this while, u have made me smile. thanks so much sis. im sorry for all the mistakes done

Syazwani Binte Roslan;
thanks for being there. and thanks for the gift. its cute though. i love it so much

Nurasiqin Binte Mohamed;
my precious daughter!!! iboO love you so much. thanks for being there for me

Farhanah Binte Muhammad;
my another daughter, thanks for being there. sorry for all the mistakes done

to the rest of all my friends;
im not a perfectionist. therefore, forgive me for all the mistakes done. in this Ramadhan Month; as im turning 20; wanted to start new afresh.

to all my muslims readers;
SLEAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN. SALAH DAN SILAP, HARAP DI MAAFKAN.

BERTAUBAT LAH DI HARI YANG MULIA, INI....





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mummy Fiona bought for me this.

den had dinner together with her.

bought for her a Porcelain Mug (saying I love Mummy)

bought for Hau Teng a bouquet of sweet PINK rose.

im sooooo happy today.

* flying to the moon *

ps: Naq.. yes.. im so happy;

Ju.. im touched!~

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