Sunday, February 25, 2007
i dunno... wad shd i really do now? am i a failure? i hope im not. not once, not twice but alwaz. i failed in frenship. i failed to be a gd person. i failed to be a employee. juz wad can i do? will i fail in my studies too? i wanna pass. i dun wan to leave ITE Bishan w/o a cert. i know i can do it. i hav ct, hansen, aisha, lin, hanis, steph n dun forget siew choo. but can i actually pass?? to many to think. workplace, family, friends, relationships but perhaps shdn't think too much. perhaps, muz i juz leave it unattended n let it be unfold itself one day lyk wad happens few days back. im confused. juz want i wan in my life? peace? hatred? grudges? love n affection? i dunno. the tym i need someone, there are no one to listen. used to hav diz gal as my bezfren. she alwaz be there for me. we talked, joked, shared.... but now... she's no more. i dunno where lies the mistakes. y she angry wif me? juz bcuz i bought dat gift, everything change?workplace... dunno how to describe... dun wanna talk abt it. studies?? uh huh.... i began to "opened" my brain to drill the 2 subject inside n lock it. 2 subject as if 20 subject... haiz.. im juz becomin' more lazy, each n every day. life is miserable.... after watever happens to me, i juz dun feel lyk livin'. scared of mistakes, liars, hypocrites, backstabbers, two-faced.... juz wad im going' thru. have my frens around me but, somethings juz been missin'. perhaps i need to soul-searchin' n reflects on my life...... let bygones be bygones....Blogged
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