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Saturday, March 31, 2007

First of all.... i wanna say sorry to all my frens on my EMPTY WORDS. we planned to wear NITE GOWN cum DRESS BUT i actually wore a pants instead. it was actually due to some circumstances dat happen the past few weeks. therefore, im sorry guys not to keep my promises to all of you...

31 March 2007.... the day i've waited and looking forward for. the nite was utterly fun man! my section had fun. while eating, we talked and joke. joke about the food. TO NURHANIS (if ur reading this), who's in-charge of the food man?? it was lyk... urGhh... tasteless man. esp the baby kailan. guess wad... even CT throw out her food when she chew on the baby kailan. she said that the vegie is to0... i repeat... TOO soft. kwang kwang kwang....

then it was game time.... CHARADES. well, for ur info, im actually expert in this game, haha. i was chosen by this section of ARROGANT gals who called me "AISHA"(THEY SABO ME SIA). my section was lyk... "WHO's AISHA??"... but they still insisted to called me AISHA... (tak nak give up siol). i was, kind of sarcastic and said, "YOU GUYS WANNA SEE MY IC??"... in the end, the emcee called me "the one wif black scarf"... haha. (LAIN KALI TAK TAHU NAMA JANGAN MAIN HENTAM JEE)

i was asked to do "prison break". at first, thinking wad to do, skali they said "just do prison, and break"... haha... lyk not common sense sia. then Khair turn to chose 4 people. guess wad... i SABO STEPH!!! haha... (AMBEK KAU UBAT). she and three other was asked to do MACARENA DANCE... ahakz... SEXY!~

next was the Lucky draw. Khair, Edlin and Mai gets the prizes. wen making the wish (WITH A CANDLE OK, MIND YOU), i did ask for.... SECRET!~

haiz... my section had a lot of fun... even though we actually dun enjoy the dancefloor BUT we dance at our section... huahuahua.... overall... we DID enjoy our nite. to the organizer, THANKS EHH!!

p.s: photos were taken... i will upload soon at my multiply and photobuckets

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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

27 mARCH 2007

im so happy today. Finally, i was accepted, again. my oh my. (syukur alhamdulilah). i promise you dat i wont do anything, juz anything, to make u sad or unhappy. i will do my best to keep ur smile out. thanks for the 2nd chance....

28 March 2007

sitting at home doing nothing. supposed to meet Azizun n Deelah but pity on my mum having her alone at the house (well...even though my dad is in). so, i cook while my mum asleep. chillin' out wif her n yea... here i am now. ohh... i was selected again to be e NDP Team Leader. well, AZIZUN BINTE MUHD JASMANI... if u happen to read this, ur dreams finally happen. yeah... WE ARE BACK ON TRACK AGAIN!!! well... Let make NDP '07 a great one even... Promise! Thanks to Mummy Hau Teng and also Mummy Fiona for putting e 2nd trust on me again. i wont disappoint u both. u know me aitez. miss you both a lots...

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Monday, March 26, 2007

alryte.... i know its been ages since my last entries.

22 March 2007

haiyahh.... so hard to find job nowadays. tired man. feel lyk wanna giv up. well, i got dat job interview offer, but i turned it down. haha... y? let it be a secret reason to myself and her

23 March 2007

went to fishing. it was fun. haha... i guess i hav pick-up new hobby for myself. FISHING. well... still a beginner anyway. cycle all the way from Tampines to East Coast. Let the pics tell everything...

24 March 2007

Fishing again today. but this tym, took a ride from Cik Bibah's car, her husband drives it. today not many fish was there. guess the weather aren't in the mood. but manage to get a few fish anyway. at night, received a call from HER. we kind of talk things out. had a great ONE HOUR call. she have to put down the phone bcuz her GUY called her.

25 March 2007

morning went to cycling with my mum's cycling gang. pheww.... so tiring. the Fengshan CC organise Mass Cycling Day. it was held at the Bedok Reservoir. have to cycled around Bedok Reservoir. so tired... afternoon, went to Tampines East CC for the E-Filling thingy. quite fun although not much things to do. mayb its Sunday, that's why not many people come

26 March 2007

Today... stay at home. do nothing. so bored. change my blog layout. so peepz, pls tag ok. TO THE LOANSHARK, i know who you are. hahaha... ok i admit i know i haven't pay up all the amount. No worries. i will try to come down on 30 March ok. i know it wouldn't be fun without me around... haha... well yeah right. TO AZIZUN BINTE MUHD JASMANI, its ok gal. im glad that you finally giv up the idea of having that "copywrite controlled" idea... huahuahua. it doesn't hurt me a penny. TO SIEW CHOO, hey gal, thanks for everything. ur advice, ur words, ur thoughts... everything worked out perfectly. remember, Love comes by itself. dun force. it won't turned out smoothly. trust urself, ignore others. anyway, finally SHE called me. TO PEARLYN, a penny for the thoughts. i hav sort things out with her. thanks a lot for the idea. TO AISHA, here's my entries dear. hope you can take ur time read this...

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Monday, March 19, 2007

cant even think wad to write today. for the past few days been acting lyk a jerk. haiz... its been a month now since laz S talked to me. are you still angry wif me? until now? i dun mean to hurt u, u know. looks lyk history repeating again. once, we nvr talked to each other for months during secondary days... dun tell me, now i hav to suffer again... call me gal. i wanna talk to u a lots of things... lots to be shared

changed to a new layout. hope this will stay for few days or months. tired of changing but guess im still not satisfied wif this layout. gonna find a better one that suits me. well... im not sure if HE read my blog. i juz hope HE read. lots of things in my mind, waitin' to be released

doin resume. thanks to Lyd, for passing me hers. dunno wad kind of job to apply. i dun bother the pay... but juz bother wad kind of job suits me. admin asst? or customer exec? haiyah... many thoughts playin' thru my mind. mum keep pestering me to get a government job. at 1st, thought of taking up NIE. well, teacher? think twice, police? dunno la... lemme think la..

keep on tagging guys... for those blog-hoppers, tagging is allowed...

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Thursday, March 15, 2007

no more wearing of uniforms....
no more studies...
im free!~

but yea.... i miss them so much...

Steph, Lin, Hanis, Siew Choo, Aisha, Hansen, Maia

and most imptly....

Shikin...

had my laz paper, Auditing. was tough, agreed on it. but sumhow, managed to finish it. expect bad results. *Sorry Mummy... i think i've disappoint you... again....*. i've tried my best. but i know i couldn't concentrate

today, it's been a week my late uncle have passed away. all i could do was to have prayer for him. i miss him. he's been playing on my mind... i cant concentrate on my studies... abt life.. im scared...

before separating from Shikin, say bye to her. but sumhow, my heart calls for her. so my mouth. she turned. i went to her n hug her immediately. i cried. tears of sadness... this tears just flow from this eyes. she said somthing....*meant to be personal, sorry guys*. if i could, i dun wanna let go of her. i hold her tight, as if 2mrw, im going far away. she cried. i could feel her tears... she kiss me ON MY CHEEK. i cried even more. im gonna miss you gal... gonna miss u soo much. wen i hug you, i know, we wouldnt meet again... forever. dats my laz look on you, my laz hug, my laz tears for you n ur laz kiss for me. hope you success in ur life... i luv u, i do.... nothin' could change that inside of me...

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Tuesday, March 13, 2007

since my late uncle passed away, it really affects me. i cant concentrate on my studies. i can teach my frens but yet, me myself still in daze

i know dat one day, we will experience death. Death won't miss anyone, for us, human beings. i was there, seeing my late uncle buried under lots of sands, rock sands. the "Ustaz" read sum prayers... e prayers simple but yet... it affects me deeply. i cant think of anything at dat tym. "wad will happen to me after my death?" i keep thinkin' of dat question... im scared to face death

everyone has to Die. but how we die, depends on how God "wrote" for our fate. my mind is in disorder now. i cant study. im so scared. i need sum1 to change my perspective of thinking. im scared... wad if i cant live up to His expectation. wad will happen later?

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Thursday, March 08, 2007

Me n Zie

Dee n Zie

Both Besties

Got e criteria to be a "mummy"

Wahyu isn't Lookin at e camera

basically juz now accompany Mamy n Yana went to Yishun Polyclinic to hav immunisation for Wahyu. he's so0o0o cute. e cheek lyk wanna make satay man. after dat, meet Dee, Zie n Aida for lunch cum window - shopping together. aLarmak!! how could i forget to take pic of Mamy, Aida n Yana. haiz.... forgetful Ain....

We met at Boon Lay MRT Station n went to Jurong Point. After much shopping, we headed to IMM at Jurong. After a while, Dee n Aida hav to go back. so, left me, Zie, Mamy, Wahyu n Yana.
ard 6, Zie hav to go to meet Akid (her guy, FYI). was walking along S&K n found this top so0oo0 nice. decide to bought it. huahuahua.... bought a top n a collared - shirt. Yana say i do look cute in those clothes i bought

after that, headed to Chong Pang to eat dinner.

now, im damn tired but here writin' an entry. if Mrs Lee were to asked about the 15 qns, im dead!! wad's more, Ms Ng's assignments qns hav not finish yet. but at least i've done part of it. so, guess hav to burn e midnight oil ah ni... guys, taggies pls...

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Tuesday, March 06, 2007

had migraine again today. well... think of loads stuff in my mind

yesterday, didn't get to blog as i visit my uncle in SGH. quite sad. who doesn't. i mean only people wif no feelin's dat doesn't feel sad or sympathy. im quite surprised wen some people actually "ignore" their own uncle when all we can actually gv moral support to him. family is importance for me... i will give my uncle e most moral support i cld. pray to God he will hang on there

study cashflow yesterday n supposedly budgeting today. but sumhow, i still need to "buck up" on my cashflow so ya... went to lin's place to study n stuff. sumhow... my mind is in disorder now

7 days to go for my Advanced Accountings II.... 9 more days to go for my Auditing. 9 days left.... after dat, all dat are left are juz memories... of her n me. wad im supposed to do? such a fickle-minded person i am. i hate her so much... e more i hate, e more i miss her. but i promise to myself... everything will go juz fine. she's happy w/o me by her side. even though she's now more closer to irda n mai, im happy. at least, i know, once upon a time, she was once happy wif me by her side, as her "gal"fren. now dat she's happy, i cant be more of that. am i happy? everyone ask me dat question. but wad could my answer be? hate her? im juz lying to myself. miss her? wad could i do. all i could do is blogging here, and express everything. this cant be reality. she have hate me.... n she's happier now than before

i have zie, steph n everyone... but why muz i think of her wen im alone, sitting back doing reminiscing? i mean, those memories juz come n.. ya... i miz her. im sorry my frens... but i cant keep lyin' to myself. i know... wadeva she hav done before, hurt u guys but still.... she's my bezfren, once. i cant simply throw her out of my life? im stupid, i admit it. but wad could i do? im helpless. i jush wish i dun even know her, but its fated for us to meet n become fren, bezfren. i love her lyk my own sis, that's all! y do people think to e extend dat we're an item? worse, people who know me for lyk 8 yrs.... even have e guts to BACKSTABBED me? do i deserved it? i nvr disturb people's life. y muz U disturb my life? y cant i be happy wif e person i Love? she's my bezfren, but yet..... ever since our frenship on e rocks, these eyes, these pair of eyes cant stop dripping and flowing down the cheek. Ur my fren, how could u even do this to me? why? i did not offend u guys, y people cant see me happy wif the one i love? people dun understand our frenship, but yet, y are they bugging us wif their problems? do we Ever, Ever offended u guys in e 1st place? i dun understand... i jz dun understand it...

the controversial picture that cause us wad we are now....

now... everything's too late. we are strangers. history cant be changed. Shikin, aku harap kau bahagia disamping Faz dan bezfren baru kau, irda. aku da kecewakan persahabatan kita. aku tahu kau bahagia tanpa aku sbagai teman kau. bila kau da tunang nanti, jadilah tunang yang baik dan ubah lah perangai kau yang mane aku pernah tegur dahulu. hidup mesti di teruskan... kau tetap dalam hati aku, sebagai kawan karibku. airmata yang mengalir ini adalah airmata kenangan kita bersama. moga Allah panjangkan umur kau dan moga kau bahagia disamping orang tercinta. terima kasih kerana kau pernah berkongsi suka, tawar dan duka di saat aku perlukan teman. ur e bez... tiada penggantimu di hati... kau akan tetap jadi kawan karibku, Dunia dan Akhirat.... itu lah janjiku pada kau. seandainya aku yg pergi dulu, ingat lah bahwa kau tak pernah hilang dari sisiku walau seminit pon... sayang kau slalu...

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Sunday, March 04, 2007

could i assume dat everything will be fine? i mean... exams are coming, countless days to go. juz left a week for me to get ready for it. n yet, lots of topics need to covered... cashflow, budgeting, HP buyer... arGhhH..~ IM DEAD, man!!~

the NDP motivator rehearsel was great. get to know new peepz. thanks god my cluster this yr all sporting dok!~ they are bunch of great peepz. cant wait to work wif them. "mummy(s)" are still my mentors, e other 3s are adam, kenneth, n e trainee Yiu Wei. e 1st gatherin' of cluster was mum. none did talk except e prev cluster C.."combine force again". after a few games, we kind of gettin' to know more of each other. Hafia was delighted man... at last she get to joined our cluster diz yr. (suke ah tuu)

i manage to finish up my Essay. thanks to Maryam for checkin' it for me (i owe u one, honey). not forgetting to steph too, ur my "walking dictionary". i dunno how the essay will turn out to be but at least i participated in it. thanks guys.... Love u both

to zie, after reading ur blog, i felt the same how you felt. guys are egoistic. cant changed the fact. but we as the other partner, hav to sacrifice n be patience....(all we need is patience). so zie, if u need sum1 anytime, juz dial 9****321 ok. u know this toll-line are alwaz 24 hrs service to u...

anyway, jz nw sum1 jz called me "snobbish". i dunno for hell wad n why. mabbe this person are yet to know me. well, how to define "snobbish"?? "...befitting or characteristic of those who incline to social exclusiveness and who rebuff the advances of people considered inferior..." do i uphold this characteristic, guys? anybody, pls answer me. hmm... shd be this person are juz jealous of me i guess. well.... in this world, we can't pls everyONE. wad to do... up to them laa kan. if im snobbish, den, this person is JEALOUS. huahuahua.... wad kind of person this person is. no guts to face-to-face. u think by writing in msn nick, u will offend me? huahuahua... wrong person u deal wif man... im not dat type. anyway, ur juz a JEALOUSY FREAK GUY~ juz face it ok!

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