I been sitting here so long Thinkin how this came to be Don’t know if it’s right or wrong Cos you’re the closest friend to me You’re the one that I would call When I needed somebody there I know it makes no sense But would you understand
If I say that I love you If I told you what’s the deal If I say that I love you Tell me how you feel If I say that I love you Would you like at me the same Cos I don’t know wanna throw it all away
If I say that I love you If I say that I love you Tell me how you feel If I say that I love you Throw it all away
Baby I can’t look into your eyes Cos Im scared that you might see What I feel inside What you really mean to me And baby I can’t run away So I really need to know Need to know
If I say that I love you If I say that I love you Tell me how you feel If I say that I love you Throw it all away
i guess everyone is right i shouldnt force myself into this. why go to the relationship when im alone tryin. its been hard these days. i cant do wad i think. i thought by turning my love for someone else it would be good enough for me. but i guess im wrong. the more i try to change this feeling, the more it grow. the more i try to forget him, the more his shadow comes towards me. why am i so scared to tell him, "i love you" ? when this 3 words can change my life. my heart is in dazed. why im trying to deny the fact that my love for him growing stronger everyday? why am i trying to turn this love for someone else who never appreciates me? why do i give this pure love to someone else that dun need it? 20%... is that all you have in ur heart for me? 80%... being hard for you to forget ur ex? am i hypocrite? changing my feelings towards someone else who dun appreciates? im going to turn 21 this year. why cant i think maturely? "...i just need you to be patience. i need to find out wads truly in my heart... trust me.. if im ready, ur the first to know... BUT IF YOU FIND SOMEONE ESLE DURING THIS TIME.... GO AHEAD.... I WONT HOLD YOU BACK..." wad is he trying to say? that 20% is all he have for me? i tried to love him all i could... with my purest heart.. and this wad i get... i kill my love for him to be with you. i forget my love for him to be with you. i lied my feelings for him just to be with you. but why everytime im alone, its him that is in my mind.. but not you? wasnt your supposed to be in my mind wen im down or alone. why him? why my feelings towards him just dun wanna fade away. i love him... but im trying to love you too. but i cant lie to myself. i can lie to people around me, but not myself. and i know you never ever have feelings for me. its just me who trying to get ur love to forget him. im trying to love you to forget him. i know i could... if only you try harder. but your not doing anything. i've done wad ever i could. but instead you... left me hanging like that. i hate this kind of feeling. here im trying so hard, there you breaking it off. and worst. ur comparing me with ur EX. i forget my love for him to be with you. bcuz i know. he have someone else. but this love just wont fade away. im tired. i cant lie to myself anymore. and yes. i DO love someone elses. i thought we could be together. but you have made me hate you again and again. 20% is all you have for me...??? just say that you dun have feelings for me. why make it hard for both of us? why must you played with my feelings?
spend the whole night yesterday. with Azhari, Eqin & Hakim. sat at the esplanade, thinking, talking, discussing about my feelings towards both of them. To Azhari; thanks for being there to listen. even though we never meet always, your still one of my clans. just call me up if you need listening ears. i'll be there. To Eqin & Hakim; take it as a bad experience. for once, now you know my past. even though not all, you can decide wad kind of girl i am. To Kenny & Ken Neo; thanks for the fast-meet-up. and sorry to make you guys suffer a bit of insomnia. meet you guys up for outing after i came back, okay. To Azizun; thanks for picking up my call to let me vent my anger on. i know i've been such a J**k to be in this situation. just bear with me, okay. To Shikin; thanks dear for being there. you hang on there...for the sake of our friendship.
