what should i do or react after everything have happen such a short period of time. and i mean everything... i hate this feeling. arghh... when i need someone. where is that someone. gosh. I've becoming more stressful than ever.


Jangan kau pergi meninggalkan aku
Tak sanggup ku berpisah denganmu
Bagaimana nanti, bila aku rindu
Di mana tempat nak ku mengadu
Demi tuhan ku sayang padamu
Airmata menjadi saksinya
Bagaimana lagi, hendak ku buktikan
Kesetiaan nya cintaku ini...


i know he had someone else in his mind.
i should have trust my instinct for that point of time.
i know i shouldn't put much hope on that.
i know he likes someone else.
this instinct is so strong.
the feeling is so great that i just feel like breakdown now and cry my heart out.
maybe its all my fault.
for wanting to risk it all and put hope on it.
i don't know why in the first place i must feel this way.
if only i didn't listen to my peers.
things wouldn't be this way though.
but its too late now.
everything never gonna be the same again.
sometimes...
i can't help it but to envy some of my peers.
they have someone to share their heart.
someone who is faithful enough to be their listening ears.
i never said that i don't have any.
too much peers... in result... who can i put my trust on.
as we grow older, our mind started to roam and trying out new things.
i know i just shouldn't playing with love.
it hurts. so deeply hurt.
i know i should trust my instinct though.
now, it's gonna take a lot of time to forget love.
i know, i must forget him for sure.

"Ya Allah.. Hanya Kau tempat aku mengadu dan berdoa agar aku ditunjukkan ke jalan yang benar dan lurus... Amin..."





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