28 April 2008 @ Tuesday





met dearest Mummy Fiona for dinner @ Compasspoint since she's not feeling that well. had swensen for dinner. she paid for it, cuz she insists. gave her a small bouquet of Sunflower for her belated birthday. and not forgetting the photo (above) made specially for her. she was touched of course. she said no one ever thought of that for a gift. *thanks to Naq for the idea*

i miss my dearest mummy a lot. although we never contact each other quite often, but in our heart, the daughter-mummy relationship still burning alive...

i still remember 2006. that is my 1st year joining NDP. that time only me, Hanis, Edlin and Shikin. that year, i have been selected to be a Team Leader. my Mentor is Fiona. Head Mentor, of course, Hau Teng. from there, my bond wif Fiona and Hau Teng grow. i called them "Mummy" bcuz they care alot for me like a mother to a daughter. i always look forward for NDP prac. not only bcuz of them, but bcuz of other frens that i make during that year.

anyway.. im so shagged today. i'll update again soon...





Blogged @ 11:15 PM

aku tak tahu nak letak muka pat ne. aku so so malu. aku rasakan bagai dunia ni sempit dan terhilang arah aku untuk menreuskan perjalanan itu. haa..... andai aku tak beritahu sebelum ia bermula. sekarang.. hilang semua segala kepercayaan aku ke atas diri-nya. aku betul-betul keliru mengapa ia bertukar menjadi sesuatu yang tiada orang menduga. bagaimana aku harus menghadapi ini semua. sesungguhnya... aku tidak boleh terima... aku tergamam saat keputusan itu diberitahu. lidahku terkelu, diam membisu. mirip wajahku bertukar dari riang menjadi duka. pilu.. janji ternyata memang payah untuk ditepati. manusia yang selama ini aku junjung, aku sanjungi ternyata... aku diam membisu.. tak tahu apa yang aku harus lakukan. aku hanya mampu untuk berkias didepan mereka. tetapi... hanya Tuhan yang tahu betapa remuknya hati ini. remuk bagai kaca yang berderai....





Blogged @ 10:16 PM

Saturday comes again. Its time for NDP training. This week training still ok. Start to talk to other motivators. Get to know their names and trying to get "click" with them.

To Kak Ju:
I'm sorry for shouting at you in front of them. I admit i couldn't control my anger due to some problems i had at home but yet, i let it out on you. My guilty conscience can't be redeem until now. I'm still can't accept it how i could have shout at you. Worse, in front of them. Aku seriously minta maaf ah, gal.





After NDP prac, me and Naq go ahead with our plan to meet up Im' and Zul. Went to Beach Road to eat "Sup Tulang".... Yum! Yum! Paid by Im'... Chill and lepakz at bedok near Naq's house where Norsiah join us late 6pm.




anyway.. im still missing him.. haa.... 7th May.. wen will it come...





Blogged @ 9:18 AM