i always thought i have move on.... i thought i have forget everything about him. but i guess... deep down inside of me, i still missing him. i miss him. i know. its not as if he knows that i still miss him. he thought me how to love. he thought me how to be loved. and i know. i have hurt his feelings... i dunno what i could do to have him back again in my life. 3 yrs have past... and still now.. i still missing him badly. the feeling inside of me... makes me longed to be loved. thought i could love some other guy beside him. i cant lie to myself. i know my feelings will always be for him. in the past, i thought i need only friends and family beside me to guide me through. his presence did not acknowledged by me even though we are couple back then. he tried all ways to win my heart. he tried his best to love me. why i cant see all that? everyone hates his/her past lovers... but me? until now im still waiting for him to come back.. for a chance to prove my love all this while is for him and not for anyone... i need a chance to redeem my past deeds towards him. all i need one more chance... i dunno how could i have this chance. every night i pray. pray for him to give me a last chance for me to redeem. i missing him badly. i feel like hugging him whenever i see his face. i feel like calling him when i see his house. i just want him badly... i dunno how i just realise that i love him. the day we broke off... i regret for stating or doing that. i dunno how could i get this right... i am stupid to do all that... i hate it! i hate myself! i love him until now... and i know i will... and nobody can ever replaced him... nobody..
