Setiap detik berlalu gementar hatiku Soalnya siapa sukar menjawabnya Andainya memang pasti ke akhirnya nanti Pencarianku ini kan bernoktah di sini
Malangnya di antara harapan dan kemungkinan Ada parut kenangan titik hitam di masa silam Memang sengaja ku hindari cinta Enggan terkecewa berulang sejarah
Lantas aku atasi kelemahan diri Mencipta dan menjejaki cecita nan tinggi Setiap detik berlalu gementar hatiku Soalnya siapa sukar menjawabnya
Andainya memang pasti ke akhirnya nanti Pencarianku ini kan bernoktah di sini Malangnya di antara harapan dan kemungkinan Ada parut kenangan titik hitam di masa silam
Memang sengaja ku hindari cinta Enggan terkecewa berulang sejarah Lantas aku atasi kelemahan diri Mencipta dan menjejaki cecita nan tinggi
Cinta hanyalah bayangan yang indah Jauh dari alam nyata Kuyakini ketentuan-Mu yang Esa Pada-Mu jua kupasrah
Memang sengaja ku hindari cinta Enggan terkecewa berulang sejarah Lantas aku atasi kelemahan diri Mencipta dan menjejaki cecita nan tinggi
i was devastated. i dunno wad to do. i thought i could overcome this, but i guess i couldn't. im a failure, i guess. couldn't think it's going to be this tough. sitting at home doing nothing. no income flows in. damn! thought i could overcome it. i miss her. too much i guess. how? how could i meet her and give her a HUG? i tried to call her but.... no response. grr... its so hard nowadays.. mum keep asking me to find a job. any job will do as lon im working.she thought working life is fun. can just choose any work. might as well i work as a cleaner kan... come to think of it.. i get frustrated every time she's pestering me to find a job EVERY SINGLE day... well.. im not a machine or big shot that i could get job easily. even though Suk always asking me to join her at CGH, but i couldn't commit myself to work on Saturdays. im a very committed person. so, my Saturdays are strictly for NDP. some of you may think that why am i wasting time volunteering for NDP w/o getting paid. as for me, to see the smile from the audience, the satisfaction on my Mummy's and fellow Mentors are enough for me. i love to mingle with the crowd. by doing that, i felt a sense of satisfaction. hur hur hur.... u guys won't understand the feeling... only the Motivators will knows how i felt. Right Zie, Dee?? anyway... i think wad a fren of mine told me is true. "the thing that you thought is not true, is the thing that are actually true". u guys think deep deep okay...
